Comments Off comments for post: "COMFORT" | Posted on 28. 09. by deeberryhill
What does COMFORT really mean to you?
I think that the definition of comfort would be as unique and broad as each of our ideas and concepts can be.
I have spent the majority of my life making sure everyone else was comfortable. If I was out with a group of people I would delegate myself to be the group “Mother Hen” and make sure that everyone felt included and able to participate. If they wanted to leave all they had to say was ”oh but I feel uncomfortable here” I wouldn’t even hesitate, we would leave. Not very often did I think about my own comfort, until recently. I was laying in bed one night and thinking wow my bed is really comfy. I love these sheets, and my blankets and comforter are so soft and the pillows, well they gave me just the perfect amount of support. Then I started to think about where else in my life did I feel this kind of comfort? Let me tell you it was very interesting to find that I knew more of where I was uncomfortable then where I was comfortable.
The big epiphany came when I realized that I never felt comfortable in my own skin. The revelation of that was unnerving but mostly it was sad.
Don’t get me wrong I am not whining or anything like that. I just realized that I never really felt that this body was the right fit for me. Even when I was a child. The older I got the less comfortable I felt in my skin and in my family. Then at 14 the truth came out that I was adopted. Not that it changed my comfort level any it certainly gave me some clarity as to why I never felt like I belonged.
So what else doesn’t make me comfortable? Well to start with my house, which was purchased during a very difficult pregnancy without my input as I was unable to leave the hospital to house hunt, our lease was up in less than a month and we had to find a new place pronto. Needless to say it wouldn’t have been my first choice. As I look back on it now I have worked really hard to make this house comfortable for all it’s occupants and it has served our family so very well for 23 years. The furniture in the house is here mostly of necessity because we were shopping for the practicality of a family,not because I LOVED them. Amazing how you can or will adapt.
So I pose this to you. Are you living in your comfort or have you adapted to your surroundings?